Awareness is what you seek. But awareness is not guilt, and love is not fear. Fear and guilt are your only enemies. Love and awareness are your true friends. Yet do not confuse the one with the other, for one will kill you, while the other gives you life.
Friendship is God's love shining through the eyes of your loved ones, calling you home to drink His nectar of eternal unity. Friendship is God's trumpet's call, bidding the soul destroy the partitions of ego consciousness that separate it from all other souls and from Him.